| Today has been shitty. Yesterday was shitty. Lets hope tomorrow isnt shitty.
On the brightside i got a package from my mommy and daddy. awwwww how sweet my mommy sent me cookies. mmm and chocolate. i should stay away from the chocolate because once i start eating it i will probably binge and not be able to stop eating untill its gone... even if it makes me sick.
So i got a blue hat (looks very warm) a blue and green scarf very cute, green gloves yay cant get enough winter wear. brown beaded ballet flats (finally i needed a pair of these things) lindt chocolate, dried apricots and home baked oatmeal cookies. :D
So i've been feeling very escapist, and sleeping alot when i shouldnt be, procrastinating with everything even though im running out of time. Ewww this is a really bad combination because this makes everything even more stressful. ugh its bad some one was telling me about vikodin (how the fuck do you spell that) and how the trick to avoid nausea is to take a whole lot of it. Its horrible but if i had vikodin in my medicine cabinate i would probably take it so i could procrastinate dealing with reality right now. Hey hopefully i will get some sort of surgery that requires painkillers someday so i have some for a rainy day. That or a whole lot of hard liquor. i wonder how fast i would have to drink the four beers in my fridge for me to pass out... hahaaha probably impossible to drink them fast enough to do any damage. Oh well. well shit i dont think i will be getting drunk tomorrow. Maybe i should just give up and wait till friday to celebrate. speaking of friday i should pick a resturant i want to go to and invite everyone who i want to come.
ON a totally different note... I shall be baking cookies for christmas for whom ever wants some. Ohhhhhh we should have a cookie decorating party... or build gingerbread houses again that was fun last year.
I bought my brother an xmas present. and my grandmother. I know what im getting my mom (tea and vintage tea cups i just got to find some somewhere in boston one of these days) but i have no idea what im getting my dad. I should also pick up like a bunch of cheap touristy boston shot glasses or the like. Maybe a northeastern t shirt for my brother to try encourage him to do his school work so he can go to college. Does anyone have any requests for anything bostony or northeasterny ?
Ok i've procrastinated more then enough i need to write this essay for english so i can go out on thursday possibly. | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment   |
| Ok my new journal is novembersilence . Add me ok?
I dont know if i should make it friends only or not. haha probably not since i love to broadcast my life to the world. haha i really cannot shut the fuck up. what would freud say about me? some sort of oral fixation. Lol. Speaking of psych i really should be doing my reading.... but im not... i did my last psych experiment today though which is good now i can get credit for the class. i dont really need to do my reading because i've gotten 100% on all my quizes thus far and thursday is our last one and we are allowed to drop one. My friend missed two he's screwed.
Oh i should check my exam grades for soc. crap did worse then the last two. 90% isnt bad but you can totally tell i didnt do my reading until the night before (haha and stayed up til 5 doing them). but that was when i went caving. which was totally worth it. 3 people in my class have higher grades. haha actually thats pretty good our class is pretty damn big. 126. Shut up elena. Shut up no one cares about the little things.
drama today. I'm pissed off. Oh well i went running. instead of a nap. that might be why im so tired. im very very sleepy and its only 9:20. i will finish this chapter and go to bed, or not. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Genius - Dandy Warhols | | Time: | 01:13 pm |
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| trying to figure out how to customize my new journal. also trying to figure out what i want to make it look like.
need to take a shower.
I've just realized that since ive been in college i havent had a full blown crush [obsession]. for the most part i havent really felt passionately about anyone... and by that i mean anything more then a passing interest. Theres probably one guy that i can not stop staring at when ever im in the same room as him, but other then that i dont know. and i dont really think about him when i dont see him. (but he sure is cute!) Even the guys i've hooked up with i really havent obsessed over in the same way that i would have a couple years ago. Yeah sure i probably checked the first one's away message compuslsively.... and maybe cared a little too much when he was kind of a jerk... but my interest in him faded pretty quickly when it was pretty obvious he wasnt interested. I could take a hint and wasnt upset. Just think a few years ago i would have not only still been thinking about him a month and a half later, but i would have already like i dont know done something very crazy and obsessive like downloaded all the music that he had listed on facebook or something really stupid like that. See how much i've grown up (and how apathetic i've gotten) and the second guy i cared even less. i kind of half assed looked for him on facebook didnt find him and stopped caring. he was pretty nice and cool but i just dont have the energy to give a crap any more. it was kind of a drunk bored meaningless thing.
I know 2 guys doesnt make me a slut or anything by any means, but im just worried that im becoming a cold hard bitch. Not that theres anything wrong with being normal about the intensity level i feel towards certain guys, but its just im so used to haveing something to feel passionately about that it gave my life a little bit of meaning and context for my emotions. Ugh but its one of those sucks either way things. When im obsessing over something it drives me crazy and i just want to stop caring. But when i dont give a crap everything feels so dead and meaningless and i just wish i had some sort of emotion.
God my lips are so god damned chapped it hurts pretty badly... maybe im dehydrated. i keep putting so much chapstick and lipgloss on ugh ouchy.
SHOWER TIME.
My Five Favorite Albums at this moment in time:
Dandy Warhols - Dandy Warhols Come Down
Dandy Warhols - Dandys rule ok?
Neutral Milk Hotel - In the aeroplane over the sea
JET- Get Born
Flogging Molly - Drunken Lullabies | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| First of all i got a new journal... but wont start using it until wednesday... you know like some sort of symbolic rite of passage.
My room is cold. i think my heater is broken.
Today i started crocheting a hat, to match a scarf im almost done knitting. its damn cold outside and i need hat/scarfs that arent redish/maroonish colors.
Campus is dead because everyone is still at home. When i came back yesterday night i dont think ive ever seen campus so dead on a friday night. it was creepy.
I went shopping in New York on friday before taking the bus home. Bought 10 pairs of underwear at H&M for $15. also got two pairs of tights to wear with skirts. also got a present for my grandmother at macy's.
Thanksgiving was ok. spent it with my dad's cousin and his family. my cusins dylan and kai are sooo cute (dylan is 4 and kai is 2). i played with them all day. cute little kids.
On Wednesday i took the train down to new york and went shopping bought a brown shirt and a read cable knit sweater. oh and purple penguin underwear. god i love underwear more then i should. and its so useless too cuz im not getting laid.
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just got a phone call from an unidentified person asking who i was... i was like uh who is this you called me... and she was like oh i think i have the wrong number then. and hung up.
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oh my god david lachapelle has to be one of the most facinating photographers ever. check out www.davidlachapelle.com if you've dont know who im talking about. So god damn colorfull like a fucking acid trip.
so inspired going to go look for more fantastic photograhpers.
speaking of which i should go to the MFA and see the ansel adams exhibit.
I wish i had talent. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Neutral Milk Hotel is really starting to grow on me. I think i finally get what everyone was talking about when they said in the aeroplane of the sea was so genius. i might not go so far as to say genius... but its certainly a very imaginative creative set of lyrics. its very possible its just a slosh of random images that some guy tricked us into thinking was profound, but i think its quite poetic. haha if i cant understand it it must be profound. its inspired me to draw on illustrator but i cant cuz i have to do this essay.
i should stop talking about music cuz im no authority on the subject, but there really isnt anyhting in my life that i want to talk about right at the moment.
i have an unhealthy obsession with my boobs. i may have no butt to speak of but at least ive got a nice (or at least i believe so) pair of tits. haha im such a retard. Shut up elena!
im soo sad that i cant go home for thanksgiving. tomorrow (well actually today since its 1:35) is my brothers birthday. i miss you guys so much and i want to see you. i dont know what im going to do saturday and sunday after i come back to boston cuz everyone will be at home. ugh that will suck. sleep alot and read a book or something. but on friday im going to spend the day in new york im excited... i just need to avoid the shopping cuz it will be a zoo cuz its the day after thanksgiving. take alot of pictures. shit im getting sleepy and i still have a page and a half left to this essay (not to mention revision) and i have a sneaky feeling that my printer isnt working... which means i will need to get up damn early to print my paper. shit and find that stupid print card. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| The thing about college is you can do what ever you want when ever you want. I keep finding myself doing the strangest things and the strangest times.
yesterday found me cara and mike walking up to bunker hill at 1 in the morning. We were following the freedom trail. That red line is just screaming to be followed. Last night we wondered around boston from 9:00 to 2:00 in the morning. I google earthed it and estimated we walked about 10 miles. what a strange thing to do. But awesome.
so we were standing up on bunker hill discussing history and city walking and looking out over boston and the pru in the distance and i realized how much i've gotten into shape. im not even sore today but it may be too soon to speak. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i think that better then taking a nap is downloading a shitload of new music and going running around boston. totally woke me up.
I downloaded to name a few
JET
Flogging Molly
Neutral Milk Hotel
Offspring
Phantom Planet
R.E.M.
Sparta
The presidents of the united states of america
starting line
and i have to say JET and Flogging Molly are AWESOME... Neutral Milk Hotel has to be the absolute weirdest thing i've heard in a LONG time, and i havent listened to the rest yet.
Its 5
I need to
Shower (5)
eat (5:30)
Write my philosophy essay (6)
Nuhoc meeting (7:30)
Finish philosophy essay (8:30 until when ever)
NO MORE MYTUNES OR WASTING TIME ELENA YOU HORRID LITTLE GIRL! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Caving = FUCKING AWESOME!
If i fail philosophy because of last weekend its ok because i really had an amazing time.
where to start?
Here are some highlights:
-Sliding on my tummy through puddles and mud
-crawling through a 2' high cave with a 1' water... ice cold stagnant stinky cave water.
-MUD!
-Hands so numb i couldnt turn off my head lamp or unbutton my jeans
-A bunch of guys eager to help me out of my jeans (dont worry i had fleece pants underneath) :D
-Feet so numb i cant feel where im stepping (and cuz i cant see either so i keep tripping)
-wading through waist high ice cold cave water
-BEER!
-Getting warm and dry after caving
-Bruised Knees and Burning Palms
-Awesome people
-sleeping through a small fire in the cabin
*sigh* i really think i must be an exhibitionist...
if anyone wants to know all the slutty naughty details just IM me :D
but what i've learned thus far in college is that the best experiences happen when you move outside your comfort zone. just think i was uncomfortable with going with out my friends caving but i went anyway and had a ton of fun and the bruises to prove it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| this bitch is so fucking sore. Damn it i took a nap i was so fucking tired and ive got way toooooo much fucking homework. oh well i really hope my philosophy essay isnt really due on moday cuz i am way to fucking exhausted to do it. everything hurts... my knees are soooo bruised its the nastiest thing ever i am so wearing a skirt tomorrow... I've never been so proud!
God i really shouldnt be updating... its just that im sooooo fucking overwhelmed with the shit i need to do tonight... i was suposed to write a page of my essay for english and post it online... oh wait i dont have to do that until tomorrow night thank god.
oh gross my side of the room is one big pile of the most foul filthiest laundry ever... haha i really need to do it.... OH CRAP I DONT HAVE QUARTERS FOR THE FUCKING MACHINES... And its 11 i dont know where the hell im going to get $3.00 in quarters at this hour... haha some more shit im going to put off until tomorrow cuz im a slacker.
BAD ELENA HAS A TON OF FUN AT THE EXPENSE OF HER PHILOSOPHY GRADE.
This gives you some idea... but its more noticeable in real life... I LOVE IT! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | home and showered dont have time to really update... but excited enough to say it was fuckin awesome | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So im going splunking (is it spelled spelunking? ) what ever im going caving in about an hour. stupid elena woke up late and didnt have time to go to the store to buy cheap ass pants, oh well i will hope that my pants will come clean in the laundry.... haha yeah right. oh well.
so i think i realized why there really arent many other girls arent going caving... miscalculated orange math. ooooooppsss oh well. i knew i was cutting it pretty close but i really wanted to go caving. what ever it will still be pretty fun.
i bought olay daily facials express (no water needed) so hopefully i wont be a filthy nasty girl.
ive got my new gore- tex hiking boots (that look but dont feel like sneakers)which will hopefully keep my feet fairly dry. they better keep them damn dry cuz the cost fucking $125
and my fleece pants to wear under my jeans (haha my dorky ass fleece haha!) to keep my butt warm and dry... they better cuz these ugly things were $45
and my nifty outdoorsy water bottle filled with power aid.
god i feel soo nuhoc-y i just dont have a back up headlamp... oh well maybe i should call molly or cara and ask if i can borrow one of theirs.
haha or i can just hope mine doesnt break. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| From now on everyone should email me at my school email address
mascarenhas.e@neu.edu | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I swear to god college is a fucking rollercoaster... just when everything is going SUPER! some bad experience comes and fucking kicks you in the balls... (yeah i know i dont know what that would feel like but im imagining that it sucks) the two worst feelings in the world, awkwardness and feeling like you dont exsist but knowing that you do. It sucks when i feel awkward and dont now how to act, and someone else doesnt even fucking acknowlege your presence. Like what the fuck am i supposed to do? Say HEY MAN WHATS UP! so someone who isnt even fucking facing your fuckign direction. Shit im sure its my own fucking fault too. thats the worst, knowing its your own fucking fault. I hate when something you had forgotten about somes back to piss you off... since he isnt reading this i would just like to say YOU REALLY ARE A FUCKING "SPECIAL" PERSON!
I havent really done homework in a week and a half. BAD ELENA! Oh well northeastern is easy (well at least the classes i have now) haha all you poor fucks at berkeley and UCLA have a real school. Well you will end up with a prestigious degree while i end up with a shit one (Is northeastern in chicago? Is northeastern a small school cuz ive never heard of it?) No no you silly california folk, its just not that great of a school thats why you've never heard of it. God im such a failure.
I'm going splunking this weekend... All my friends are busy but i was just like WHAT THE FUCK this is college I SHOULD JUST FUCKING DO IT MYSELF. you know how am i going to be a independent person if im not willing to fucking put myself in awkward situations... hahah yeah god im kinda nervous i sure as hell hate awkward situations...
But thank god everything is going SOOOO much better then early this year. Im still haunted by fuck ups but im starting to feel like my fucking self again. Not this extremely introverted person that im not but was acting like at the beginning of the year. Im starting to feel happy again. In fact this past month has been pretty damn good overall.
I have nothing to complain about cuz im prettier then your mom. And ive got nicer boobs! OH and i worked out today... arent you proud? soon (hahaha yeah right) im going to be inshape and able to hike 15 miles up a fucking mountain with out breaking a fucking sweat! you just wait and see!
Yup got to put on some clothes now... thats what i miss the most about having my own room... being able to sit around topless and not worry that your roommate will walk in and think your weird! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So i saw fight club today.... AWESOME FUCKING ASS MOVIE!!!!!!
hahaa that movie totally WAS SOOO FUCKING AWESOME... like it made violence and aggression soo glamorous... and u know what a whore i am for glamour. shit i want to go blow some shit up... or beat something (with out the pain). haha violence with out the pain.
awww but i love brad pitt sooooooo soooooo soooooo sooooo HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT... theres a guy who is welcome in my bed anyday. mmmmmmmmm brad...
i should probably shower. but im lazy so i probably wont. well i will just not for a while even though its already 12:15 | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| BAHHH!!! I HAVE NO SELF CONTROL!!
im stuffing my face constantly even though im not hungry... i keep eating until i feel sick then i have to lay on my bed until my tummy ache goes away.... i wonder if this means im not getting the nutrients that i need or something and im just eating everything in sight?
no but i force myself to eat stuff like tofu and i eat alot of veggie burgers and vitamin enriched cereal... well i do eat a lot of carbs. yesterday i gorged myself on soybeans that cara bought... BAD ELENA eating other people's food. BAD BAD elena
see i have no self control... NONE!!!
mmm elena loves special K red berries... and its iron forified! good so i wont be anemic. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I want to see so many movies... everyone is seeing jarhead and i really want to see jarhead too!!!!
fun weekend... new pictures in image station too lazy to link it, you can search for it.
http://www.imagestation.com/album/index.html?id=2117967575
haha see i wasnt too lazy i found u the link motherfuckers.
i need a new sn...
should i do something with my name/nicknames?
Or something to do with california?
or what?
i think maybe something with my name but whaatttttt??
haha i can be like maria... elnaaaaaa j.k
what rhymes with elena? elenaelenaelena lenaelena?
elenaluvsu
Elena Sachi
esm1130 hahaha thats the lamest sn ever!
elenasachi
lenasachi
leelee
elenalikesfood
god what even about my personality makes me unique. nothing i feel boring.
i like photography and food alot but so does the rest of the world.
ilikeyourpenis
ilovemyself
elenaluvsalmosteverybody
sleepforever
dirtywhore
californiabitch
ilovetea
650forlife
Sfbayareakicksbostonscoldsnowyass
teamakesmepee
nowhereinlife
anywherenowhere
anywherebuthere
wishuwerehere
lalaladeedaadaa
drunkandtopless
warmfuzzyfeelings
hairyandsquishy
closeyoureyes
shutthefuckup
meanpeoplesuck
november
coldnovermber
novemberair
novembersleep
novembersunday
novembermorning
dirtysocks
elenaneedstodolaundryorshewillhavetowearskankyunderwear
laundryisdamnexpensive
sachimorningside (lol!)
sunrisefog
coldandwet
summerfog
foreveraugust
glamorousindierockandroll
iwishiwasglamourous
glamoursomeday
iloveboston
sexisgood
iwishiwasinthemountains
skinnydippinginicecoldmountainlakes
skinnydip
skinnyassbitch
ireallyreallylikemyboobs
itstoobadicantsharemyboobswiththeworld
biggerisbetter
shutupfatass
chamomiletea
turquoise
aqua
ivegotbrowneyes
ilikeskinnyboys
smokingisgross
letsgetstoned
fadeaway
yeah i have no fucking idea and i really should track down some quarters do i can do my laundry | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| (i love how i've stolen this from maria with in like 10 minutes of her posting... i swear im not checking my lj friends multiple times a night desperately looking for new updates...)
10 years ago...
I was in third grade. Good old innocent Bullis... little fucked up rich kid school. good thing they done away with it. What was i like in 3rd grade? who was i friends with? i dont think i had a best friend i just kind of hung out with different people all the time... i was 8 (or almost 8) when i was 8 we visited Japan, Thailand, and India. i remember Japan was very rainy but cool, Thailand was fucking hot, and India was pretty cool.
5 years ago...
I was in eighth grade at Egan. Hahah can you say awkward times??? Thats when i met Csilla, hahah good times we had history class together. Ewww Mr. Eales !!! gross why did i have to remember that. gross... yeah awkward awkward stage in my life... i was a annoying hyperactive skinny girl with small boobs.
1 year ago...
Senior year. *sigh* fucking GOOOOOOOOD TIMES!!! i mean sure fall semester was a BITCH with college apps, and work but god damn i enjoyed being with all my friends. And in november i hadnt been rejected from all the colleges i wanted to go to yet. Party Hard, Work even harder.
yesterday...
Got up late no time for breakfast but luckily got out of philosophy early and grabed food before psych :D attended my classes faithfully, participated in a research experiment. took a really long nap and did homework. wow how lame.
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5 snacks I cant live without...
-Chips
-Cranberry Juice
-Power Aid
-does Coffee count?
-what about Tea?
5 places I'd run away to...
-The Mountains (plumas eureka)
-New York!
-Italy
-NYC
-Anywhere in Europe
5 things I'd never wear...
-Uggs
-Fur
-Tacky animal prints
-Any thing Frumpy
-Grandmotherly Floral prints
5 favorite TV shows...
-Arrested Development
-CSI
-Law and Order
-Family Guy
-South Park
5 bad habits...
- Avoiding difficult situations
- Snooze button
- Awkwardness around guys i want
- Recognizing people only after they pass me on the street
- Obsessing Over Guys who dont want me
5 biggest joy...
- friends
- Traveling to New Places/Old Favorites
- Sleeping
- New Music
- Good Food
5 things I can't live without...
- family and friends
- my laptop
- my room key
- my cell phone
- food
5 things I could do without...
- Awkward Moments
- Mean People
- Waking Up Early
- Yucky Food
- Laziness | | comments: Leave a comment |
| yeah ive had a pretty easy homework free past couple of days. i probably should do some reading so i dont get behind but i really dont give a fuck right now.
so in the spirit of avoiding homework i will kill some free time by updating my livejournal.
ive already written a very long rambling email to csilla.
ugh bad elena downloaded mytunes so now im stealing music like crazy... lets hope this doesnt get me kicked out of college.
i dont think it will.
the temptation is too great.
i participated in my first reasearch experiement for psych.
easy. i lied about my age of course. cant wait until im 18. of course its 21 that really matters. i should get a fake ID. i want to go to vegas. i want to get shitfaced and walk around in my underwear. i want to bring a guy home and shatter my roommate's mistaken image of me. i want to get stoned and truely understand pink floyd. I want to stay out all night and attend class in the same oufit from the day before still slightly tipsy. I want to go home with a stuck up gorgeous sketchy narcisist guy who is too drunk to fuck. I to be a completely gorgeous model with no direction and snort cocaine with beautiful people who think they are gods gift to man.
but i also want to sit drinking tea while knitting and watching people outside my window, and have a real relationship with a cute but nice guy. i want to watch old movies and sing along to musicals, i want to be completely unjudgemental and friends with everybody and anyone. i want to be quiet and quaint. i want to dress up elegantly like audrey hepburn and go out to eat good food. i want to bake cookies for all my friends, i want to have long deep intimate soul baring conversations about the meaning of life or how our childhood has shaped our personality. i want to cook indian food, and jump in muddy puddles in rain boots and a bikini. i want to sit out on a warm sandy beach as the sun goes down and watch the sea gulls forage for food. i want to sleep with my face on a cute guy's shoulder who smells like fresh laundry and his arms around me in a non sexual way.
yup im a walkng contadiction. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| yay my computer is working!
so on friday i came home and it wat tootally not turning on so i played with it for a while and it still wouldnt turn on... i was afraid that my roommate like spilt alcohol on it or something but thankfully i took it down to resnet and they fixed it.. like all he did was take out the battery and then plugged it back in and it was working. i felt soooo stupid cuz it wasnt doing that for me.. but he backed up my file on the northeastern server thingy just incase it didnt turn back on... had to wait like 15 minutes for my pictures to transfer... he was a photo minor so we had a nice discussion about photography and cameras and photography classes at northeastern... i was proud of myself for not being shy (of course i wasnt in the least bit attracted to him which would explain my non shyness)... i just hope that he deletes my stuff off the server... cuz who knows those computer dudes might just be a bunch of creeps who look at other peoples pictures when bored.... gross. oh well i dont have any nude pics so its all good...
yup being with out a computer is like losing your arm... it SUCKS majorly. so now im goign to backup my photos on my ipod cuz im totally paranoid about losing my precious photos. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| OH BITCH WHO JUST WROTE A FUCKING KICK ASS ESSAY????? YEAH MOTHERFUCKERS ME!!!! this shit rocks it! of course i had to sacrafice my FUCKING thursday night to the paper... but what eva what eva... i will be laughing all the way to the transcript. ahahah how lame that didnt even make sense.....
basicly what im saying is im fucking estatic i fucking just finished this fucking essay. cuz it SUCKED HAIRY BALLS to write.
damn i hope i get a fucking A this time on this fucking essay... i would have gotten an A- on the last one but it was FUCKING to short.. motherfucker!
im soo excite my grades kick major ass this semester... i got an A on the midterm in psych plus full credit on all my quizes. I got an A on my first soc test and im pretty sure i did pretty well on the second one... i got a B on my last essay so the A in english is in site (fuck if i get it it will be my first A ever in a english class! i always get B cuz i skip all the boring small assignments) toooo bad my philosophy essay was a complete piece of shit, i swear the next one will be better. lets hope i get a B in that class.
thank god for intro classes!
hell yeah im fucking happy to be done... im totally applying for honors fuck maybe i should dual major! can i even dual major in art (photo)? or can i have mutliple minors? fuck i swear to god im going to kick soo much ass in college!
all those motherfucking schools that rejected me can kiss my ass... or maybe i will kiss theirs and transfer, but shit it was so hard to adjust here it will be hard to do it again...
employers/grad school will be begging for me hehehe and of course i will go try and waste it all in a career that doesnt even require a college education...
haha its funny cuz what i have the least talent in (social abilities) is what i want to do with my life, the thing is that even though im shy i can be extroverted, and i like it. When im being extroverted is when im happy, when im introverted im sad, i just need to fucking teach myself to get over the awkward beginnings and open up, cuz once im open things are ok! thats the point of college for me, teach me to be fucking comfortable. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| haahhahahaha i soo fucking frustrated... i was trying to squeeze another half a page into my english essay for the past couple of hours (of course i kept getting distracted) when i realized that my essay wasnt double spaced, it was 1.5!!!!
fuck im such a fucking idiot!
bleh on the brightside im pretty much done with this piece of crap.
well i still need to review it...
im so fucking tired, im tempted to just fucking go to bed early tonight... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 
Yeah Yeah i know im a self absorbed ai CS2 whore... but what ever!
the ear is really bugging me, but i think i just might be too lazy to change it.
any suggestions/criticism? nothing is set in stone...
oh shit on another note.... next semester im taking social psych, abnormal psych, italian 1, and hopefully photo... i have to wait to sign up for photo cuz im not an art major... if photo fills up im taking statistics for psych. yeah a whole lot of psych but thats my motherfucking major bitch! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | procrastinating because i canf focus on this damn damn damned essay... its such crap i dont know where to start... bluhhhh... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| my first illustrator creation... well the first one that havent
trashed.... but its not done... ive already started working on my next
one even though this one needs a little bit more...
It needs something.... but im not sure what.... ive run out of any sort of inspiration....
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